Taking my show on the road.

Next month I’m going to be speaking at the Sunstone symposium. Sunstone is a fantastic magazine that focuses on the Mormon experience through academic scholarship, literature, and addressing of social issues within the church and without. It doesn’t seem to have the rule that everything it prints has to be strictly devotional, so you’ll often find articles inside that make you think deeply about your beliefs and how you apply the gospel for yourself. Since my own faith is more of the searching, questioning type, as opposed to the humble obedient type, I so appreciate the forum Sunstone provides to learn and grow and deepen my faith in the open and sometimes messy way that seems to work for me.

I’ll be appearing on three different panels. One on raising a child with special needs, another on online resourses for Young Women’s leaders (thanks to my work at Beginnings New), and another on “mommy blogging” (oh that term makes my skin crawl – it just sounds so dismissive to me) with my friends at Feminist Mormon Housewives.

The conference is August 12 – 15 in Salt Lake City, so if any of you are planning to attend I’d love it if you said hello! I could use the support. It’s a little intimidating to come into such learned and accomplished company with just this little blog to recommend me.

Necklace in progress

Meanwhile, I have to get busy writing three different speeches, but the harder thing is going to be trying to find something to wear. This post-baby figure of mine has not budged in 18 months, and nobody seems to make nice clothes for the post-baby body. I would really like to find something that isn’t too tight in the wrong places without hiding all my right places. So I think I’m going to have to make it myself. With the perfect jewelry of course.

Garden Bounty

Garden Bounty

This gardening thing has a real learning curve. I may have failed with sprouting seeds, but my bulbs all went off like gangbusters, and once I bought the seedlings and got them in ground, I managed to keep them alive, mostly, despite the fact that some have been trying their darndest to die ever since.

So I messed up at the beginning part, I got really good at the middle bit, and now that I’m at the end I seem to have stumbled again. The heat has arrived with quite an entrance, and most of my garden is starting to shrivel.

Being the garden newbie that I am, I guess I didn’t realize that harvesting is a skill of it’s own. I naively thought that you just pick it when it’s done. Without really thinking through how you know something is done. Tomatoes are easy, and I’m seeing the benefit of that. I’ve eaten nothing at lunch but Cherry Tomatoes with goat cheese and Parsley Oregano Vinaigrette for over a week now. And then fried tomatoes for dinner. [Note to self – share these recipes]

Lettuce is another story. I seem to have gotten greedy and allowed everything to bolt in my attempt to let it get bigger before eating it. I’m hoping that it will work out that I’m now seeding for a fall crop, but I was SO mad at myself that I didn’t get to eat any lettuce for my trouble.

I had the same problem with my cucumbers. I’d heard plenty of warnings (which I just went on to ignore) about lettuce bolting, but no one ever mentioned that cucumbers would yellow and bitter too. Once again, I couldn’t resist watching the cucumbers get bigger and bigger until I missed my window.

At the beginning of the year I laid out my goals for the year, and in some ways I’ve done really great, but in others not so much. I really wanted to learn to improve my drawing (and I still do) but I just couldn’t resist the call of the garden. I think I’m going to sub that in and call 2009 the year I picked up gardening and leave drawing for next year.

But for it to count, I think I’m going to have to do better at the beginning and ending bits. Maybe next month I’ll give seedlings another try for a fall crop of carrots and greens and get to redeem myself.

400th post winner!

The winner of the 400th post drawing was comment #1 – JustMe!

I’ll try to track you down through your blog, but I don’t have an email address for you, so drop me a line so you can claim your prize!

Thanks so much for participating everyone.

400th post giveaway!

I had not planned on slowing down for the summer, but, as I really should have learned by now, I seem to have very little control over how things go in my life. Atti’s still recovering and doing awesome but his eyes just look gruesome right now. The white part is still red and blistery looking, and his blue/hazel eyes are set off in such stark contrast against it that it’s a little bit spooky. On top of that, I was used to a little cross-eyed baby and now I have these bloody blue eyes peering directly into me. It’s a little bit disconcerting.

I’ve been running around like crazy behind the scenes here, trying to make some career opportunities happen, trying to track down the cause of all these nerve-wracking chest pains, and trying to not blow my top at any medical professional who doesn’t listen to me. I guess some people think that it’s calming if the doctor doesn’t seem terribly concerned, but all you have to do is have one doctor call you crazy and suddenly any attempts at calmness just seem like you’re not being taken seriously.

I have been neglecting you my dear blog, and I have a bunch I have to share, but for today I thought I’d throw a little party. My five year anniversary is coming in November and I have a bunch of stuff planned for that, but I couldn’t resist a mini-celebration for hitting the big 4-0-0. You guys have meant so much to me, particularly over the last year. The needs of my little man keep me fairly isolated from my community, but I don’t feel that loss for a moment because I have such a supportive and nurturing group of people cheering me on. Really, I can’t say enough how much I value you all.

So, leave me a little comment (make sure you enter an email address or leave a link) and I will draw one winner at random who will get to select *any* item they wish from my shop. That’s right, one free item of your choice just for coming by and saying hi. I’ll pick a winner on Friday, at 9am Pacific time.

Because I love you guys, and sometimes I just don’t say it enough.

One less thing to do…

Last night Bear made dinner, so I found myself with an unexpected hour on my hands. I decided I’d finally do the task I was dreading the most, and give the stinky cat a bath.

I keep saying that Lobo helped prepare me for becoming a mom to a boy in many ways. I think he’s currently preparing me for the teenage years because this cat is greasy and stinky and refuses to clean up after himself. He is apparently content to be all nasty and matted instead of fluffy and pretty like my girl cats. I’m sure it doesn’t help much that Atti attacks him with drool at least once a day, but even without that he is one gross cat.
Lobo takes a bath

He was not very cooperative, but he wasn’t super uncooperative either. I managed to make it through the whole ordeal with only one scratch, and once he was good and soaked he stopped fighting and just cried his little eyes out.

Lobo the drowned rat

The main problem was his disgusting greasy tail. I washed him with baby soap, I washed him with dish soap, and when that still didn’t do the job I finally gave up and then asked google for advice. Turns out that this is a common condition with in tact male cats called “Stud Tail.” The only solution would be to either bath him weekly with degreaser and powder him afterwards, get him neutered, or live with it. So I have to deal with my teenage kids greasy hair. I’m sure it won’t be the last time.

Cheetara looks on in horror
The other kitties watched intently, terrified that they were next.

Snuggled up
The poor guy was freezing after the bath, and he certainly wasn’t going to go for a blow dryer, so we wrapped him up in a towel and cuddled him to keep him warm.

Puss in Boots
Have you ever seen a more pathetic face?

After this whole ordeal, I’m going to be a lot stricter about letting him roll around in the dirt outside. I really don’t want to make this a regular thing. The cuddling part wasn’t so bad though.

2009 Year of Pleasures #17

I always do this to myself. I always overextend myself with the best of intentions, I make myself crazy trying to meet some arbitrary goal I set for myself, I complete it, stand back with pride only to realize that I have let everything else in my life disintegrate around me. And then I swear I’ll never let myself get so out of balance again. Until the next great cause comes along.

I am suffering under a to do list that is just shameful (you know it’s bad when you have to write “Bath the cat, and the baby” on a to do list), I have unfinished projects in every room, and my house is just icky. Bear and I had a weekend long baking fest to contribute more good stuff to the auction and so I now have strawberry sauce dripping down every cabinet and walking across the floor is like walking through molasses. Plus the unfinished projects aren’t even satisfying unfinished projects. They’re just work. I really need to get inspired again and come up with something good to talk about around here.

In the meantime, I’m trying to not let my pendulum swing too far in the other direction. Typically my reaction to throwing myself out of balance would be to through myself headlong the opposite direction, scrubbing the house on my hands and knees and staying up too late to finish the neverending list. But I’m not going to this time. The cat will still be dirty tomorrow. And I’m trying to let that be OK.

Needlework in the sunshine
Today I’m going to lunch with some girlfriends and then I’m going to sit in the sun with some needlework and a Coke and look at all my gorgeous blooming Ranunculus.

Busy weekend

Grandma's birthday
Four wiggly kids tempted by cake + low light = one very blurry picture

Bear’s family all got together this weekend to celebrate Sally’s birthday. They only live about an hour away, but with the baby and his schedule, we don’t get to see them as often as we should. An hour away seems to be just far enough to make it too hard to do midweek.

Bear made another one of his cakes, but Sally wasn’t really into all the fanciness we’ve been messing around with lately. She is a function over form kind of gal, and didn’t want any of the pretty to interfere with a good tasting cake. So we made a quadruple layer white cake with chocolate ganache filling, and then I layered on about an inch of real buttercream frosting. Fondant sure looks nice, but when you are as big a fan of real buttercream frosting as Sally is, it just gets in the way.

White cake with buttercream frosting

I’m kind of the “get it done” girl in the family, so our birthday present to Sally consisted of a pile of things she needed doing. Skirts fixed, old projects finished, technological help. The big present was unveiled late Saturday afternoon. Everyone took the kids and bustled off to a nearby swap meet (which is really a deceptive name because the Orange County swap meet is more like a temporary outdoor mall than any other swap meet I’ve ever seen) while I stayed behind claiming my bum knee, and then spent the next five hours stripping wallpaper out of one of the bathrooms.

When I finished removing all the wallpaper in our house, months and months and months of removing wallpaper, I swore that I would never do it again. That it would be a deal breaker in any future house we might buy. But their wallpaper really needed help, and if you don’t have to live in the mess, it’s oddly satisfying. It’s like peeling sunburned skin or popping a really big zit.

No? Just me? Oh. Sorry.

We came back late Saturday night so we could make it to church Sunday morning. For Atti’s whole life we’ve been taking turns going just long enough to teach our classes and then coming home. He’s been getting monthly RSV vaccinations and we were warned with the fear of death to keep him away from crowds. He just got the all clear, so we were so excited to bring him to church with us and sit in the pew like a real family, only to wake up that morning and realize that he had absolutely nothing to wear. I just couldn’t bring myself to bring him to church for the first time in nearly a year in a pair of jeans and a t-shirt that said “Mr. Grumpy” on it. I’ll at least save that for the second week back.

Then I heard that the teenage girls I work with are having a fundraiser this Saturday for a summer camp. Only showing up to teach my class leaves me pretty far out of the loop for most stuff, so while they’ve all been working on this for awhile, I was totally oblivious. I have until Saturday night to make a quilt to contribute. After finishing my healer quilt by Thursday when I’ll see Atti’s therapist Miss Jan for the last time. I think I can do it. But I may not sleep much in between now and then.

My little backyard cutting garden

It’s done. I did it. I got everything planted that I wanted to plant, and everything is taking off and it is miraculous.

I’ve had a few learning experiences along the way, for some reason I cannot seem to grow a seedling in a pot but I’m going to keep working on that one, I think I let my poppies choke out my anemones so I might have to replant those, and my magnolia tree does not seem to want to rebound from it’s years of neglect – not really sure what to do about that – but overall it’s been a wonderfully successful and deeply enjoyable project.

I grew up all over the west, and moving around so much never really allowed us to settle in and make a plot of land our own. Even when we managed to stay in one place for while, I think it was a habit that was just too hard to break. By the time I was a teenager the only gardening I knew how to do was chopping down blackberry brambles and painting the stumps over with lacquer. In our part of Washington, the blackberries would swallow your house whole if you let them.

I tried container gardening once, and it was a terrible failure. Have I told you guys about this before? I tried keeping a lemon tree and a lime tree in a pot on my deck, but I was so over excited about it that I flooded them everyday and killed them. By the time I finally threw them out they slid out of their pots with an audible slurp like a can of cream soup.

I finally seemed to have found the knack. I’m sure that living in this climate where everything grows doesn’t hurt anything, but I’m so proud of myself that I’m just going to take credit for that too.

I wanted my dream garden to be functional. I didn’t want it to just be some nice looking plants that would hold the dirt in place or that went with the look of the house. I wanted it to be personal. So every thing I planted, every single thing, can be brought inside to bring me a little harmony, a little nature, a little nudge along the way of appreciating the bounty around me. Everything flowers, everything has vibrant color or sweet fragrance, or both, and there’s space leftover for food. I think as it grows in it will be a beautiful place to be, but it will also make it so easy to incorporate the outdoors into our lives.

Gardenias and Hydrangeas
In the shade of the house I’ve planted Gardenias and Hydrangeas. The scent of gardenia is maybe my favorite thing ever, and the color of hydrangeas are maybe my favorite thing ever, so I love having this big aisle where they can grow together.

Herb Garden
On the other side of the door is my herb garden. The parsley and cilantro are always trying to take over everything. I’ve had to uncover the poor oregano more than once. I think it’s time for me to make another big batch of chimmichurri sauce.

Then continuing around the corner we have our grill, and then this long planter starts that I’ve filled with ranunculus bulbs and roses.
Ranunclus Bud
I should have ranunculus showing up any day now.

I got super lucky on the roses. I don’t think I would have been able to put them in this year without showing up at the nursery on the perfect day. They were just transplanting all their winter rose stock into 5 gallon buckets, and were selling the leftover bare root roses at 75% off the original price. I snapped up 9 gorgeous rose bushes for $5 a piece, when the 5 gallon roses are now selling for $40. I basically got 9 for the price of 1.

I sorted through the varieties, trying to find them represented in the more mature flowers so I could get a preview of what I was buying. They had these huge fat white roses with a deep strong fragrance called John Paul’s, so I picked up four of those, and then I just took a chance on the others, hoping that I’d get a good mix of colors and figuring that as long as I had my fragrant John Paul’s, it wouldn’t really matter if none of the others had a strong scent.

They’ve already started blooming and I had such a pleasant discovery.
Here’s Cinco de Mayo:
Cinco de Mayo rose

And John Bradley:
Joshua Bradley rose

And this one’s called Rock and Roll:
Rock and Roll Rose

It’s hard to distinguish in pictures because right now everything is pretty much the same height, but in that long planter there are two little circles meant for trees. So I planted a lemon and a lime at the end of last summer, and they’re now growing their little juicy jewels.
Lemon Tree

The planter rounds a corner to a bigger section where that sad Magnolia lives. I’ve shown you this section over and over again because at the foot of this tree is where the poppies and anemones have been fighting it out. But behind the tree, along the brick wall, I planted a bunch of dahlias and they are growing up like corn stalks. I should see some flowers from them any day now too.
Dahlia

There was one part of that planter left bare after all the poppies I attempted to transplant died dramatically. So I decided I would take that opportunity to put in my one favorite flower that I had left out so far. I planted this new variety of lilac. It’s this fabulous deep magenta and one whiff brings me right back to a summer as a kid playing under lilac branches.
Declaration Lilac

Then, around the corner of the house, next to the planter is my vegetable garden, but across from that, right up by the house is a nice shady spot, perfect for one last little flowering shrub. So I planted this salmon pink Camellia.
Camellia

I saved a lot of money by buying everything small and immature. So even after all this planting the backyard looks pretty bare. I can’t wait what happens to everything through the summer, but I know that by next Spring I’ll have a little wonderland back here.

Shop update is LIVE!

Spring 2009 Shop Flyer

Well, it only took me two hours longer than I planned, but it’s done.

I didn’t feel like I’d gotten that much stuff finished, but I guess I forgot about all the different versions. Holy cow that took forever.

Anyway, thanks for putting up with all the shop discussion. I realize that on most blogs this happens without all the hubbub, but this was a big deal for me. Years ago, pre-etsy, pre-craft blogs, pre-paypal, before all the things that make online sales so darn easy, I started a business selling things I made. My friend helped me launch this big website and since I was independent I had to do all the hard stuff myself – no easy marketing, no payment processing that all comes with etsy – it was my own site and I had to do it all myself.

It was a miserable failure. Partly because I named it “Eclectic Sass” (I thought it was such a great description of what I was trying to do) without realizing that the url could be read Eclectic’s Ass. I was doomed from the beginning.

Then there was the fact that I priced everything crazy high because I kept hoping that things would take off and allow me to leave my mergers and acquisitions job, and since I was the sole breadwinner back then, the only way I could leave that job was if I made just as much money through my crafting. What a pipe dream.

I went to craft fairs and just watched as person after person liked what I had to offer but was not willing to buy it and my heart broke more and more every time as I realized that things were not going to take off and I was going to be chained to my desk for much longer.

It really was a remarkable learning experience, learned very much the hard way, and I’m still a little gunshy about putting my stuff up for sale. It’s such an investment of money and time, and there are very few people in the world who are willing to pay for all the labor we crafters put into our work. I’m doing it to try to face this fear and let go of it all. So thanks for putting up with me.

I have a home decor emergency!

I may have just created a problem for myself. For the past year I’ve been collecting things to put on all my painted and yet naked walls. I have a lot of wall space in odd places, so I’ve been brainstorming different options to fill things in.

First, there’s this wall under the stairs. This is the wall we stare at the most since it is behind the television and the computer, and yet with all the weird angles and niches and doorways, I didn’t really love just hanging up something traditional. I was watching Sesame Street with Atti the other day, and saw a home office wall decorated with framed images of font alphabets. It just made my brain explode it was so clean and graphic and fabulous. Then I started seeing “type walls,” all over online. With my well established love of the written word (hello, Atticus?) and the fact that this is essentially the wall of our home office, I thought it would be a perfect fit. So I made up a bunch of projects I’ll show you soon that fit with this theme, canvases and frames and loose wooden letters, and I thought I’d do a grouping starting on the wall over that niche, swooping over the top of the computer, and down behind the T.V.

Then, there’s the wall up the stairs. I have so much real estate there. Since it reaches 20′ tall in some places, I easily have 100 sq ft to fill. I liked the idea of hanging a collection to kind of break up that huge space and so I started collecting vintage glass plates.

This weekend I finished compiling everything I wanted for my type wall, and as soon as I hung the paper copies on the wall to fine tune the placement, I realized that I was going to end up with two big collections coming visually right up to each other.

Bear and I debated this last night and we decided that it was either going to look like crap or look like total genius I planned all along.

The two walls are actually part of the same wall, just divided by the stairs. They’re also painted two different colors. I’m leaning towards the thought that the two collections will echo each other and provide harmony with enough contrast in the colors, shapes, and items that it won’t just look like one big cluttered chopped up mess.

Here’s a few different views. Decide for yourselves:
Grouping plans

Grouping plans

Grouping plans

So what do you guys think?