On My Own

Last night I took Bear to the airport for a business trip. He’s off in Seattle this week, learning how to do his job from someone else who’s really good at it. He spent today in Lynnwood, and then tomorrow he’ll be in Tacoma. It’s a little wierd knowing he’s in my old stomping grounds […]

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It’s hard to be depressed when you live here

Ten miles away from my current apartment, and five miles away from the houses we’re looking at, this is what I get to see. I took that last weekend. We had gone to the temple and seen my old friend Mark, driven home and changed, and it was only 5. Bear’s been having wicked stressful […]

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"I Can Make This" Friday

The trait I got from my dad that I’m the most grateful for is the ability to look at something and figure out how it’s done. He prided himself on being able to make it by hand, even if it cost more to do it, even if it took so much time it wasn’t worth […]

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Happy Crafters

One of the hardest parts of this miscarriage is the fact that it happened right after we moved. If this had happened when we were in Modesto, it would have been just as big a disappointment, but I would have been surrounded by people who love and support us. I have no doubt that my […]

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Kids = free entertainment

We were visiting my sister-in-law the other day and playing with our 3 yr old nephew Moose.* He had a friend over for a playdate that ended just as we showed up, so we were able to catch him saying goodbye to his friend Asher. Moose can’t quite say his R’s or S’s, so spelled […]

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My Happy Accident

My friend Schelle and I were having one of our marathon phone conversations the other day. The kind where you’ve been talking for an hour and don’t have anything new to say, so instead of just getting off the phone like a sane person would, you end up going around the house doing your chores […]

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Ta Da!

Introducing…Polly the PT Cruiser! She’s my new baby and I love her. See how proud I am? She’s actually quite roomy inside. I’m just so overjoyed it brings a tear to my eye.

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Looking for the lesson

Thank you all so much for all the thoughts and prayers and emails and cards and flowers. You all really saved me through this. I tend to be a fairly prideful person. And my life has already been filled with so much tragedy and hardship that I feel completely worn out. So I frequently find […]

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Baby didn’t make it.

I had the D&C yesterday. Today I’m just cripplingly depressed.

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Were you really expecting anything different?

Things aren’t looking too good for the baby. We went in for an ultrasound on Monday and they still couldn’t find a heartbeat. So they sent us to the hospital for another ultrasound and about four different doctors, and they recommended doing a D&C right then and there. We couldn’t bring ourselves to. So we […]

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