Let me start by thanking all of you who are about to pay your California state tax bill. Because thanks to you Atticus is going to turn out OK. As soon as his doctor told us he had cerebral palsy, our minds immediately went to the worst case scenario. We thought of Jerry’s kids, or […]
[Continue reading...]I LOVE YOU INTERNET!!
April 2, 2008
It’s our very own “It’s A Wonderful Life” around here. I have been so buoyed up by all the comments. I can’t begin to say what a life line you all have been to me. I’m so touched by all the old friends, new friends, former lurkers, and internet friends that have rallied around me. […]
[Continue reading...]Oh how I wish I was exaggerating for dramatic effect.
March 24, 2008
Just when things were going so well…. I naively hoped that finally, Finally, FINAAAAAAAALLLLLLLYYYYYYY, things were going to turn around for us. After a decade of struggles it looked like we were going to have everything we wanted. Great house, great job, great family. I must have forgotten how my life actually works. For the […]
[Continue reading...]Making Progress
March 20, 2008
This photo is already a couple weeks old. Now he has a little more chub to his cheeks, and he’s even beginning to sprout a double chin. Instead of looking like a weird little wrinkley thing, now he looks like a baby. I’ll take photos tonight, but between my lack of time to do absolutely […]
[Continue reading...]Riding the neverending roller coaster
March 4, 2008
They say that as a parent, you’re only ever as happy as your unhappiest child. I didn’t imagine that the saying included infancy, but apparently it does. When he has a good day, I am just elated and I can see little cartoon birds cavorting around my shoulders. When he has a setback, I’m looking […]
[Continue reading...]He does need me.
February 23, 2008
Yesterday I was in such a state that I almost didn’t even want to go down to the hospital. I was so emotional and distraught that my baby didn’t need me, that I didn’t think I could handle seeing him at all. I couldn’t stop crying all day long, and when I went to make […]
[Continue reading...]Where am I?
February 22, 2008
Has it really been two and a half weeks? Not just one never ending day? I feel like I’m living life in fast forward and slow motion at the same time. Thank you all so much for all the comments and emails and phone calls and flowers and presents. I just can’t believe the outpouring. […]
[Continue reading...]By this point, is it even a surprise anymore?
February 11, 2008
Guess what. That stomach pain was not a growth spurt. It turns out that I was massively pre-eclamptic, and the symptoms were just presenting in completely oddball ways. Tuesday morning I finally called Bear in a panic. I knew something was wrong and I couldn’t deal with the pain anymore, but I needed him to […]
[Continue reading...]Rough week
January 31, 2008
We had a great time in Tucson, it actually reminded me a lot of Modesto. Both are pretty decent sized towns plunked down in the middle of nowhere, so you get the benefits of suburban living with all the conveniences of plenty of stores, along with the benefits of rural living. I found a bunch […]
[Continue reading...]Rookie’s been hitting batting practice.
January 24, 2008
Since I hit about 20 weeks, this kid has not stopped wiggling. It took me a while to figure out what was him and what wasn’t. I was getting so anxious to feel something, I went online to read all the descriptions of what a moving baby is supposed to feel like. I read about […]
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